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"Go and take the scroll that lies open in the hand of the angel who is standing on the sea and on the land." So I went up to the angel and told him to give me the small scroll. he said to me,"Take and swallow it. It will turn your stomach sour, but in your mouth it will taste sweet as honey." --Rev 10:8

This November I have participated in NaNoWriMo, a 50,000 word online writing project. Today I am near 47,000 words and will, God willing, reach my word goal this weekend. In the course of this month I learned that writing this novel may have been my idea of a lifetime dream, but I do not think that it was God's idea for me. The call to return to this Catholic Life blog has been powerful all through the month of sitting at the keyboard. At first I thought it was just the 'excuse' not to work on the NaNo novel. In actuality I think the NaNo project was the permission I needed to go back to writing this blog; to take up the scroll handed to me.
I have done a lot of work with icons. The scroll has a very important symbolism in them. It is the game plan of gifts God has written for us. In today's first reading for Holy Mass I read again of the scroll and how wonderful it is to recognize its gift to us from God. To take it means to accept this gift and all the sweetness of resting in the love God has for our individuality and the work only we can do for Him on earth. It also means we must have an accountability for having accepted it. To ignore our gifts is to have a sourness in our stomach.
The angel of NaNoWriMo is standing before me in all his glory. I will finish the novel project because of the many lessons I have been taught in the writing process. And to finish is a lesson in itself. And I also accept the scroll of this writing project as well. There is relief in this sweet taste of honey in my mouth.